too many thoughts to think of...astahgfirullah..

lately i have this kind of problems...suddenly my head/mind had running of thoughts...too many of it..im afraid i may face depression...Ya Allah selamatkanlah hambaMu ini....semoga kami dirahmati dan dilindungi...
i really dont know why it is happening now...why????
i have a difficulty in initiate sleep but somehow..sometimes i can sleep easily too esp in classes...
what can i say..
what can i do...
just be strong...
nowadays..i like to curse myself...why???again why???to make sure others satisfied???
i lost...im losing myself...ain please come back to the tract...bnykan doa ain...be positive...
sabar....patience....
ooo i missed my school life...
i missed home...
i missed cooking....
i missed watching TV...
i missed quarreling with siblings...
i missed babbling..
i missed everything...
i missed my HUBBY....

i wanna finish this posting and wait for JPA scholar to be in my pocket then i want to go shopping...

emmm...

ain...
please...
find back the strength...
u should be urself
be positive...
try to get back the spirit...
u have to have it..
dont lose it....
dont get lost...
find the way back home...
Allah is always there for us...ask from Allah... a lot of prays....
insyaAllah...everything will be okay...

p/s: amalkanlah istighfar dan zikir ktika mhadapi musibah....ganbatte!!!!!