stress??? anger?? happy??

lately...dah lupe nk tulis blog..ahahaah.
bz ke aku nih???spatutnya bz la kan...tp aku relax je..betul ke nih??aku cuba bz tp takleh...

ehmmm cita tak kena...xcita pon tak kena....

this week is my final week in orthopedic..
the exciting aura had been reduced...slowly...i try to be enthusiastic...waaaaa cannot!!!!
i hate myself....hate when this "inferior" feelings overcome my confidence level (confident la sgt aku nih..)
seeing my friends discuss a lot of things, i realise that i have a lot of things to cover...alhamdulillah Allah shows hte way to me..but then..i..somehow feel a bit stress because of i felt like i did know anything about it...start to act quitely..be silence..but deep inside i want to share but i felt like people around me somehow do not believe in me (hahahaha laugh to myself)..

i think i have very STRONG instinct..but on the bad side...susah susah nih....astaghfirullah...

Ya Allah bantulah aku dlm menangani masalah ni....bersihkanlah hatiku YA Rahman...

bila dah terlajak cakap baru la perasan..bnyk benor aku wat silap...
bak kata pepatah; "terlajak perahu boleh ditarik...terlajak kata buruk padahnya"
"sudah terhantuk baru terngadah"

benda sudah jadi..aku perlu berubah...change myself...bkn bertukar jd superman tp jadi org yg lebih baik...
betul suami aku cakap..."kurgkan bercakap...bnykkan amalan"

amonolog - "ain...u know yourself...u know your limit..u have the confidence...u will become a good doctor..whatever it is.be istiqamah..usaha doa n tawakal...remember all the advices...recall back what u had done previously during your primary,secondary school,matrix and last 2 PROs exam...u have the courage dear ain..u have it...be positive...POSITIVE..smile to the world...u will be happy..always and always pray to Allah..ask His forgiveness and ask for His bless"


p/s:ain remember this monolog...